November 30, 2012
It’s official. I no longer have a baby at my house. Sloane Cadét is one. It’s such a bittersweet moment knowing that we’re done with babies. I have always said that first year is the hardest. It’s also the fastest. I tried my best to soak up each and every moment no matter how hard.
Little Miss Sloane is the perfect little ending to our family. She’s spunky and sweet, she ADORES her brothers and never stops smiling. I get stopped everywhere I go by people exclaiming over her smiley face.
While I might have a hard day today letting go of her babyhood, I’m excited for this next phase. Sis started walking a few weeks ago and is so darn proud of herself. The boys are anxious for her to really start talking and I love the wide-eyed wonder of it all.
Happy Birthday sweet Sloanie B. We love you dearly!
November 24, 2012
It’s been a rough few weeks for me emotionally. Gavin and I were doing well getting adjusted to home school life and being together 24/7 and then a bomb was dropped. Our best therapist told me she was leaving. I don’t know if I can put into words how much I love this woman. She’s amazing. She truly has a gift for working with special needs kids, Gavin especially. Her passion reaches beyond an 8-5 job. She understood that in order for Gav to do C, she first had to train his brain to do A and B. She understood how an autistic child’s brain works better than anyone I’ve met or read about. She UNDERSTOOD GAVIN. We’ve had Kim for the past 5 years. She’s been there since the beginning, and she was now leaving us.
SIX days later, Gavin’s super awesome tutor left me a note in his homework folder telling me she was going to be done the beginning of December in order to student teach. Another bomb. Gav LOVES “Miss Lindsey Lou” as he nicknamed her. (I think he has a crush). The other day Grandpa was asking what he liked about Lindsey and this is what he said, “She teaches me good stuff, she’s beautiful, she has beautiful hair, she has nice shoes.” 🙂 I just told him two days ago that she wasn’t going to be around much longer. You should have seen his face drop.
AND THEN, Tuesday, Gav’s super sweet OT came out after his session and started the conversation with, “I really don’t want to have to tell you this…” I just burst into hysterical laughter. You know the kind where something is so unbelievable that you just can’t help but laugh even though laughing is the furthest thing from your mind?
So that’s it. In the past 2 weeks we have lost all 3 of some of the best people I know. I feel like they can’t be replaced. When I envisioned the future, never once did I imagine any of those three faces not being a part of it. I imagined Gavin no longer needing services, but they were always in that vision.
I don’t know what’s next. Is there a reason that things have changed so drastically all of a sudden? Are we supposed to move on to something different? If so, what?